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Actress Billie Lourd is quickly becoming a fan favorite in the American Horror Story universe. She may have only started her journey on the horror anthology series but her performance is notably scene-stealing. Her character, Winter Anderson, slightly mirrors the morose attitude and deadpan delivery that made Lourd's character on Scream Queens so appealing. The 25-year-old actress visited The Ellen DeGeneres Show on Tuesday where she talked about her acting and emotionally opened up about the tragic loss of her mother, Carrie Fisher and grandmother, Debbie Reynolds.

often visited Ellen as a guest over the talk show's 15 seasons and counting run; it also happened to be the last talk show she appeared on before her surprising death. Tuesday marked the first appearance on Ellen from where she opened up regarding the loss of her "goddesses" and how she is coping:

"It's completely surreal. There's no way to really explain it, and it's so hard to talk about. If I say that I'm doing good, I'm too happy. If I say that I'm not doing good, then I'm a mess. It's really hard to know what to say about it because it is so surreal and impossible to deal with."

It is pretty unimaginable to understand what Lourd is going through at such a young age losing the two women closest to her. It felt fitting that she she spoke so personally on Ellen considering how her mother was known to be so open about struggles in the public eye.

Fisher and Lourd's father, Bryan Lourd, were always reluctant about the idea of their daughter going into acting but it actually came about in the form of a role in . The role would give Lourd the opportunity to work alongside her mom in The Force Awakens. Because of the role, Lourd fell in love with acting, which Carrie urged her to explore:

"J.J. Abrams called me to come in for Star Wars because he couldn't find someone for the lead. He ended up finding Daisy Ridley, who's an incredible actress—so talented! But I went in and he ended up giving me this tiny role with a couple lines. I was super excited. I didn't know what was going to happen and ended up going and fell in love with it. I was weirdly singing Jersey Boys on set and really comfortable. I came home and my mom said, 'This is really weird that you're comfortable here; this is one of the most uncomfortable environments in the world. If you're comfortable here, you should do this...You should act.'"

The fact that Lourd originally auditioned for Rey is definitely interesting. Even though she did not get the part, it led to a separate role in the world she was immersed in growing up. The minor part also kicked off her acting career as she went on to star in Scream Queens, and now in sister Ryan Murphy series, . Who knows what could have been if she never auditioned for Rey a few years ago? Her path may have been very different.

Besides her family's acting chops, it looks like Debbie Reynolds' musical ability have rubbed off on Lourd. She revealed that music is also a major part of her life but she is not ready to release anything just yet. Not until she "develops the cajones." Fingers crossed, she develops them soon because we're sure she would also knock a music career out of the park. You can watch the interview in full below:

Billie Lourd can be seen in American Horror Story: Cult which currently airs Tuesday nights on FX. She will also be reprising her role as Lieutenant Connix in Star Wars: The Last Jedi which hits theaters December 15, 2017.

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