As I watched Logan for the third time last night, I came to a realization that had been creeping in the back of my mind since the first time I saw it. To someone like me, a first-generation Mexican-American college graduate, #Logan is the kind of film that showcases how much a person can sacrifice and accomplish without ever actually reaching their goals.
The Animal Within Will Kill You
As fellow writer Maggie Stancu said in a recent post;
Logan can't help but look to the past. He looks at everyone he's cared about and all he sees is death and destruction.
Logan is a man that can't live with himself. He can't come to grips with his innate and animalistic nature, yet everyone around him relies on the sacrifices he makes. Logan never wanted to be a hero and he most certainly never expected to be a father. These things were thrust upon him and, as much as he tried to fight them, he couldn't turn away from helping Laura and doing what Xavier expected of him. Though his sense of loyalty is stronger than his need for selfish gain, this takes a toll on him as he struggles to fight against the hands of time and his deteriorating mental and physical state.
'You Still Have Time'
Logan has given up the idea that he can have a family again. The pain and suffering that he's gone through has diminished all hope of ever feeling that emotion of warmth once more. Still, Logan is willing to sacrifice himself for Laura and her friends because he wants her to have a chance to lead a life different than his.
"Don't be what they made you," he whispers to Laura as he dies. He, a man who has spent his whole life fighting with himself, doesn't want that for her in any way. I'm sure that the small amount of time they spent together will be something that Laura carries with her for years to come, reminding us that it's not the quantity of time, but the quality of time that matters. A brief exchange can be stronger than a lifetime of memories.
'So This Is What It Feels Like'
Logan's final scene is heartbreaking for me because I was there from the very beginning of the cinematic take of the #XMen. Out of all the characters, I identified with Logan the most because he was always an outsider trying to play by the rules set forth by others.
As Logan whispered his final words, something inside me broke. The pain and suffering of a man whose only wish was to ensure that those around him were safe and out of harm's way was reminiscent of my own personal dilemmas. Most days, I feel helpless because I know that I can't help my family more and ensure that they're taken care of 20 years from now. I chose to lead a life where my art and creativity will lead me to poverty unless properly exposed to the rest of the world. I want to demonstrate that a life of sacrifices doesn't have to result in an unfulfilled life.
Logan has inspired me to take advantage of the little time I do have to do what I can before my time is up, even if I don't accomplish everything I set out to do in this lifetime.
Did you watch Logan yet? If you haven't, go check out Hugh Jackman's last hurrah as Logan/Wolverine.