We are often our own worst critics and it seems that nobody knows it better than Daniel Radcliffe himself.
A stalwart of the eight-part Harry Potter series, the British actor is undoubtedly one of the most recognizable faces on the planet. Yet, having grown up alongside one of the greatest franchises in movie history, you'd think he would be incredibly proud of his colossal achievements. The reality however, could not be further from the truth.
"It's hard to watch a film like Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince"
Three years since the final wizarding installment wrapped, Dan has been refreshingly candid about his feelings regarding the previous 10 years that he had spent alongside Potter. While admitting that the series was "an incredible blessing," catapulting him directly into the epicenter of the film industry that's such a struggle to break into, he revealed that it wasn't always so easy.
For one, coming into the business as an inexperienced actor, he heavily regrets that his acting development happened in full view of the entire world:
"The moments I'm not as proud of, mistakes other actors get to make in rehearsal rooms or at drama school, are all on film for everyone to see."
And it is one particular installment, the Half-Blood Prince, that is a cause of severe frustration:
"I'm just not very good in it. I hate it. My acting is very one-note and I can see I got complacent and what I was trying to do just didn't come across. My best film is the fifth one (Order Of The Phoenix) because I can see a progression.'"
"I'm seriously critical of myself"
For some, an open statement of distaste towards any part of the wizarding series may appear as a betrayal to a sacred franchise that has millions of fans worldwide. Yet, it must be reiterated that any negative opinions he wields against the franchise are fiercely directed at himself. And this is understandable:
"It's more important for me to be very critical because I've grown up in an atmosphere where everyone is always wanting to be nice to me and say what I'm doing is great [...] And so you don't trust that. Ultimately you have to look to yourself or a handful of people to get a proper opinion. I'm seriously critical of myself – if I wasn't I would be worried. You don't want to be the one people to say: 'Great, great, great' to and then turn round and think: 'Shit, shit, shit!'"
A long, hard battle with alcoholism
Incomprehensibly frustrated at himself, Dan has also recently admitted that he down-spiraled into a lifestyle of casual sex and whiskey to deal with the pressures of the role. The "nightly" drinking sessions became such a problem that he would even sometimes go into work drunk, although:
"I can honestly say I never drank at work on Harry Potter. I went into work still drunk, but I never drank at work. I can point to many scenes where I'm just gone. Dead behind the eyes."
"I don't think I was consciously trying to rebel or sabotage everything [...] It felt more like there isn’t any blueprint for how to get through this. And the reason I spoke out about it was because I felt someone else would and I should take control...which is exactly what I did."
In 2010, Dan took the decision to abstain from alcohol and has never looked back since.
"I will always credit the opportunities I get to Harry Potter"
Now 4 years since the final Harry Potter installment, it seems that Daniel has come to accept his wizarding past for what it was - a phenomenal learning experience, with its ups and downs, that continues to pave the way for an even brighter future.
Since leaving Hogwarts, the ex-Boy Wizard has starred in a myriad of movies across a wide spectrum of genres, from horror-flick Woman In Black, biographical drama Kill Your Darlings, fantasy thriller Horns to romantic comedy What If. And 2016 is set to be even bigger and better, with Dan starring alongside James McAvoy as Igor in Victor Frankenstein - check out the newly released trailer here:
"People don't shout Harry Potter at me now, they tend to know my name, which is lovely. [...] But I always will credit the opportunities I get to Harry Potter. I would not be a happy person if I was bitter about those ten years of my life."