Nothing to See Here. Move Along.
Hello readers! Honesty time. I completely forgot about doing the 5 Day Gif Challenge, was spending a bunch of family time watching backed up tv shows on my DVR. I was going to hurry and just put one out so I wouldn't have to worry about it later; but I decided instead to sit and continue watching stuff with my family, and use that time to think over how I want to handle today's post.
You guys definitely deserve to have something I put time and effort into. These challenges might not be super important to the overall culture of this site but it is a good chance for readers and other creators to learn about the creator in this case, me. With that said. . .
So here's Day 1 if you want to check it out. I can't stop you, I can only hope to contain you. If you don't read it (which is fine), then I'll explain again that this new challenge is a bit different. This time around we're suggested scenarios and we can either choose one or create our own. We use one of the topics to make a gif story detailing our reactions. I didn't do however. So whoops. Anywhozzle.
Here is the list of scenarios to choose from if you want to make your own:
- An awkward family film viewing
- A date that didn't go well OR exceeded expectations
- Watching an emotional film :'-(
- Watching your first Rated-R film
- A horror flick that you were NOT ready for and/or haunted you for days after
- When you have high expectations for a film and it flops
- Binge watching a TV series when you KNOW you should go to sleep
- Watching a film and everyone else around you is on their phones/being obnoxious
- That moment when you DIDN'T see the plot twist coming
- Watching a film that's got you laughing uncontrollably
- MAKE UP YOUR OWN!
This isn't going to be sunny, bright and happy, but it will be honest. Not looking for sympathy just letting you guys know more about the person that is CJ. I decided to get really real with you guys and talk about something I've complained about for a very long time but I've gotten used to now.
My Giffin' Social Life
Feel free to turn back now. It's not too late. Don't worry I know this is a movie site it ties movies into it.
I'm Cj A. Glover, 23 year old Scorpio who just recently moved to South Carolina. The A is for Awesome. Or Amazing. Or Artistic. Or Abnormal.
I want to write and direct movies. I love computers and I really like typing. I love superheroes; I'm more partial to the movies and tv shows than the comics but enjoy both. I'm addicted to Television, Movies, Anime and Manga. I always stay up to date on my favorite shows. I can't handle horror movies at all. I love gaming but my wallet only allows me to do so much. I can't draw but I still plan to draw my own graphic novel one day. I'd rather stay inside, lay on the floor and talk about life and tv show theories and movie ideas, than do almost anything outside. I do love skating though.
AND I'M SINGLE LADIES!!!
I've been in South Carolina about four months now and the only places I've been is Church, the mall and the supermarket. I assume there's no fun to be had in this place.
I previously lived in North Carolina and the place I lived wasn't much better in the activities department but I did have good friends there.
Here however, I haven't quite made any friends yet.
I haven't had to make new friends since I was in school. Even then it was fairly hard.
I don't know how to make friends as an adult.
Not like I can just go outside and start asking people to hang out.
Where do you even go to talk to people? I could probably try going to social events.
I could meet people online but that comes with it's own problems.
Then there's one of my biggest problems. I have social anxiety.
Like anything in life not everyone is affected by social anxiety the same way. Me I'm basically just not ok ever.
I can manage in one on one situations but once it gets into groups things get harder and I eventually just fade into the background of nonexistence. My mind is constantly racing worrying about things that probably don't matter but continually bother me.
I think that everyone in the world can see everything wrong with me.
I constantly think it's only a matter of time before I say something weird or do something awkward and lose people again. Talking online gets hard too because it's less about my appearance and more about who I am as a person.
Even writing for Moviepilot is kind of weird for me. I just assume it's ok because no one can see me through my writing. Still every view feels like eyes watching me as I speak, and sometimes I wonder what my readers think of me; even though they probably don't and only care about what I wrote. Which is nice.
That's why I love movies and tv. I love connecting with characters that I can grow with emotionally. That can say all the things that I think about.
I get to see characters that know how I feel.
They always understand my sense of humor.
I don't have to try to pretend I understand things or enjoy things that I just don't get.
I love watching things about unconventional relationships. Bromances like JD & Turk. Womances like Grey & Yang. Group Friendships like Friends or The L Word. Faux parental relationships like About A Boy or Detachment. Shows about people meeting up and slowly but surely falling in love. Guys who aren't good at making friends eventually finding great ones like I Love You Man, Wedding Ringer and 40 Year Old Virgin. It reminds me that it's never too late and keeps me hopeful for the future.
I have friends though, don't get it confused. I don't have friends here and I don't know how to make more but I do have great friends who have been in my corner for a long time.
People who I can stop talking to for a while and pick it up like we never stopped. People where we both know that no matter what, even if we fight or argue, we've always got each other.
There are great nerdy facebook groups with really awesome people.
I also do things. I volunteer.
So I don't go out and hang out with people right now. If movies have taught me anything it's not to give up; some day someone may move across the hall from me and we might become best friends. Until then online friends are just fine.
Plus it's easier.
I'm quite happy and I make sure to smile as much as possible, especially when I go out. Never know when a smile might brighten someone else's day.
Well, that's my story. If you're still reading this. . . I have no idea why. Sorry it's so long and if you're computer slowed down to a crawl because of it. I used way too many gifs in it but I just love them so much. Gifs are a Cj's best friends. This went kind of personal which probably means I won't end up keeping it up here for very long because I'll rethink it and decide that it's better if I don't make the most emo, depressing post in the universe. I'm not even sure if I actually want anyone to read this. I just kind of feel like I'm talking into the void on this one. I'm sure by the time I wake up in the morning one of the moviepilot people will have removed it for being pointless. I still have the gifs though so that'd be ok. Don't worry I'll plan tomorrow's out more so I won't be winging it as much.
Love ya guys.