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Before she was rocking every noteworthy fashion catwalk around the globe, and sharpening up her acting skills in movies such as Paper Towns and Suicide Squad, we often forget that Cara Delevingne was just a normal girl trying to get her big break.

And recently, she revealed some rather shocking details about her pre-fame life struggles as a teen.

On Friday, the star courageously opened up about her recurring bouts of depression, which began when she was just 15 years old and continue on and off to this day. She revealed that at one point, the situation was so bad that she suffered a mental breakdown at school, self-harmed and even considered committing suicide.

"I wanted the world to swallow me up"

Speaking at the Women in the World conference, she said:

"I think I pushed myself so far [at school] that I got to the point where I had a mental breakdown. I was completely suicidal, I didn't want to live any more. I thought that I was completely alone. I also realised how lucky I was, and what a wonderful family and wonderful friends I had, but that didn't matter."

As a result, Cara was taken out of school, attended counseling, and went on medication. She eventually finished her education at 17 years old and plunged herself headfirst into a career in modeling, where many of her problems escalated. In this vicious industry, the young star struggled to say 'no' to jobs, overworking herself, and developing a skin condition called psoriasis, amongst other things.

And it was only when another big name in the business intervened, that she was able to pull herself out of this spiraling abyss. Speaking at the conference, Cara surprisingly revealed that it was British supermodel Kate Moss who stepped in and significantly helped her, encouraging her to take some much-needed time off.

Cara and Kate Moss for Burberry
Cara and Kate Moss for Burberry

She admitted:

"All those problems I had I masked with medicine instead of taking time to really solve them. But at that time I really wanted someone to stop me, to go ‘you need to take a break’ you need to look after yourself. What happened was I eventually said no, and I eventually took a break, from the advice of Kate Moss, who kind of picked me up off the floor."

"It's about finding people who care about you, and support you"

Today, Cara is stable and has come to realize how lucky she is to have had the support network that she did. She continues:

"It's about finding people around you who have your best interests at heart. I had a lot of people around me who were just after what I gave them ... not looking after me. So it's about finding people who care about you, and support you. And I've now been able to become a support for other people, as well."

These days, it appears that Cara is way more happy and comfortable in her own skin, perhaps due to the fact that she's waved goodbye to modeling and partly to do with the fact that she's in a loving relationship.

Cara with girlfriend Annie
Cara with girlfriend Annie

The ex-model is rumored to be discussing marriage with her gorgeous girlfriend Annie a.k.a. artist St. Vincent. The pair began dating last December and are very much in love. So much so that in the past, Cara has said:

"I think that being in love with my girlfriend is a big part of why I'm feeling so happy with who I am these days. And for those words to come out of my mouth is actually a miracle."

Watch the full Women in the World interview with Cara below:

If you know of anybody struggling with suicidal thoughts, or simply needs someone to talk to confidentially, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline on 1-800-273-8255.

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