On stage, Lady Gaga seems invincible and oozes an incomparable sense of confidence.
Yet, speaking to press on Wednesday, Mother Monster revealed that she had such a bad case of the jitters on her way to the first shoot of American Horror Story, that she spewed into a plastic bag in the backseat of her Rolls Royce, before generously handing it over to the show's co-creator Ryan Murphy. She revealed:
“I threw up in the plastic bag and I saved it and brought it to Ryan Murphy. He was like, ‘Oh, you think you can disgust me? You can’t.’ The thing is, you think you can’t get anything past him, but then he met me. And I’ll bring him a bag of my own vomit to the set.”
As you all probably know, the megastar brings to life the role of the diva Countess on American Horror Story: Hotel, a lady with quite the passion for fashion and a bloodthirsty penchant for murder.
Just when rumors were milling around about the possibility that Gaga would take on the role, many agreed she would be a perfect fit for it -- after all, she's also used to assuming fierce personas on stage during her performances. In reality however, the singer admits that she's nothing like the ruthless Countess at all. In fact, she's pretty amused by the fact that people draw such close links between them saying:
“I find it funny that people wonder if that’s just the way that I really am, so this was very easy for me to just kind of walk in here with my blonde hair on and just be a bitch and be rude to everyone and that’s just what I do, because you’ve seen me do something like that before.”
“The truth is that it’s actually very challenging to be sincere when you have all of that on. It’s not comfortable. It’s never been comfortable for me.”
So, what did Gaga do to transform herself into the role?
According to the actress herself, she followed Murphy's advice to "be more of a bitch, be meaner, be more restrained." In addition to this, she took it upon herself to study cinematic serial killers such as Norman Bates in Psycho and Hannibal Lecter, chillingly brought to life by Anthony Hopkins in Silence of the Lambs.
"I just don’t give a f—k about s—t anymore"
In efforts to come to grips with her unsettling character, the budding actress also felt herself almost delve into the dangerous territory of method acting, starting to think like the villain she was portraying:
“If I’m out at a restaurant or I’m in the car and we’re driving past people, I sort of look at them and wonder, ‘Gee, I wonder if you’re clean. I wonder, if I were to kill you, if it would be worth it for me."
And with time, as the Countess began to overtake her mind more and more, Gaga admitted that at times even her fiancee Taylor Kinney was taken aback:
“It’s quite a challenge for Taylor as well at times because I just don’t give a f—k about s—t anymore. Because [the Countess] just can’t be, she’s been alive for 100 years. So no matter what goes on in her hotel, if she loses her cool, she can’t handle her s—t.”
"I want to be taken seriously as an actress"
Despite all the crazy that the role is making her do, it seems that Gaga is having a blast, and she is overjoyed at being taken so seriously in an industry with which she has been rather unfamiliar until now:
“It’s always been so important to me that if I were to ever to make a move in television or as an actress that it would never feel like a move and nobody would ever go, ‘Oh, here she is trying to become an actress and put out a clothing line and a record label’ – you know, that’s sort of the thing that everyone expects, right?."
“I don’t give a f—k about that. It is completely unfulfilling to me. It does nothing for my soul. What I did want was to be taken seriously as an actress.”
Yet, what is it that Gaga wants to achieve the most?
The Mother Monster concludes:
“I desperately so want for you all to love the real me and not the idea of me that you write about or see. [The Countess] wants everyone in this hotel to love her for who she really is, cunning or not. Cunning, evil – she feels that they’re all here in this triumph of the hotel because of her. And she keeps them together and she wants to be rewarded for that, for who she really is, and not for anything else.”
'American Horror Story: Hotel' airs on FX on Wednesdays at 10pm.