It takes major balls to look back on your younger self and say "I was an awful person," but that's exactly what Demi Lovatohas just done in a new interview.
Speaking to Refinery29, expert balloon-blower Demi took us down into her (former) paradise, revealing some inward home truths about her bad attitude prior to being admitted to rehab for substance abuse — and (spoiler alert!) it totally wasn't cool for the summer.
"Prior to getting sober, I was one of those people who was like, 'I don’t give a fuck, whatever.' And I used that as an excuse to do whatever I wanted. I was a nightmare to work with. Just bitchy, a cunt."
Lovato's bad gal phase is textbook Disney princess-gone-wild, and culminated with the popstar punching a backup dancer while on tour with the Jonas Brothers in 2010, before going to rehab for both cocaine addiction and an eating disorder.
Six years later, she's not only out of the woods and in a healthy, happy place, but also confident enough to talk openly about the struggles she faced as a teen. And really, what's wrong with being confident?
In the interview, Demi recalls her response when those around her would attempt an intervention:
"Try to ground me — I pay your bills."
If that sounds shocking, it's really not — hard recreational drugs, made in the USA and further afield, are literally everywhere in LA and the music and movie industries, and when you're a star who bought your mom a house, you probably don't want to hear the word "stop."
The high of having access to anything and everything makes you feel like you've stood on a skyscraper looking down on the world, and you don't want to come down.
"I couldn’t go 30 minutes to an hour without cocaine and I would bring it on airplanes. When I hit that moment, I was like ‘It’s no longer fun when you’re doing it alone’ ... [I was like] 'Wow, I'm one of those people. I've got to get my act together.'"
After her last album Confident generated two hit singles (both amazing, by the way), Demi has succeeded where certain other Disney stars failed, impressively getting her shit together and giving our hearts a break in the process.
That's why we're all rooting for you, Demi. You can read the Refinery29 interview in all its brutally honest glory right here.